My nickname is kelly. I'm a 40yr old mom of two beautiful little girls, two guinea pigs and a hamster(Rocky)~ICU nurse~cancer survivor~recovering addict~ex-smoker~living
in Calgary, Alberta.....
.... or...
just another sheep searching for the meaning of life and everlasting
happiness....
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
When i find it i'll be sure to let you know though ;)~~~~~~~~
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Currently i don't know if i'm going to maintain
my blog on a daily basis but i am going to blog ACC (cancer) updates - the
original reason for creating my webpage and blog. *Hugs* to my friends and i wish
anyone looking for information about cancer on behalf of themselves or friends
and family all the best on your journey. ~kelly sXe
"With happy
thoughts,
faith and trust and
a sprinkling of fairy dust"
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Friday, August 06, 2004
Things are good. In fact things are really good amazingly enough. Okay so i'm having a couple of good days... :P
Finished my step one with L last night. She's a smart lady. Dunno if anyone else coulda really helped me. She doesn't only know the program she knows what it's all about for me. That's the difference. She knows how to get to the heart of what's been going on... why i've done the things i've done... why i do the things i do... and what to do so i don't go back there.
Guess it helps that i'm a carbon copy of who she was 23yrs ago. The thing that fascinates me the most i suppose and keeps me coming back is that she keeps telling me what i should be doing and i know she's right but i don't do it... lol. And she's okay with that. She's not flippin out or getting mad at me... just sits back waiting patiently for the day i'm gonna get it.
I've been thinking lately wtf i just can't do what she's asking me to do... and thinking that she doesn't know that i'm thinking this... then last night she says to me... i know how it is.. you've taken away the drugs and the alcohol and the cigarettes and now i'm telling you to give up one more thing and you're thinking f&ck you... lol... that's exactly it!!
Hit the thursday nite meeting after L's place. Wonder what she had planned last night... unusual for her not to wanna grab something to eat or drag me to a meeting with her. I'm not on the ball enough yet to pick that up until a half hour later... she'd have nailed me right away. Anyway, met K and J down at the meeting. I was late and by the time i got there the place was packed. K gets up and sits on the floor so i can sit down... a little while later J asks if i want a coffee and goes and grabs me one... i'm thinking omfg what awesome friends i have... then i realised they probably think i'm old!!!... lol. :P
susi
10:37 AM
"I have heard it all my life,
A voice calling a name i recognized as my own.
Sometimes it comes as a soft bellied whisper.
Sometimes it holds an edge of urgency.
But always it says:
Wake up my love.
You are walking asleep.
There's no safety in that."
- -- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
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"You're an interesting species... an interesting mix.
You're capable of such
beautiful dreams...and such horrible nightmares."
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