That describes what i get from my 12step program exactly.  It's such a wonderful feeling to finally find people as f&cked up as yourself AND who want to do something about it AND are doing it.

I'd be the last person on the planet my old friends would have picked to some day clean up... and not drink or even smoke as well????  Not in this lifetime.  I devoted my life to doing everything that felt good... it was all about short term rewards... and getting rid of everything that didn't feel good... like having a job... having any responsibilities... friends that like actually needed me to do anything besides roll them another doobie... my life ran on auto pilot... the bills paid themselves... someone else worked and cooked...did the shopping... my parents cleaned my house... looked after the kids.  F&ck and i gave all that up??... i must be f&cked... lol.

I'm sure i used to be a functioning human being some time in the past... back before my job started to interfere with my drug use. 

But ya know what... i got exactly what i wanted... EXACTLY... so you have to be really careful about what you wish for because you will get it... it may not be overnight... but it will come... and when it does you might just end up wishing to have it taken away.