My nickname is kelly. I'm a 40yr old mom of two beautiful little girls, two guinea pigs and a hamster(Rocky)~ICU nurse~cancer survivor~recovering addict~ex-smoker~living
in Calgary, Alberta.....
.... or...
just another sheep searching for the meaning of life and everlasting
happiness....
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
When i find it i'll be sure to let you know though ;)~~~~~~~~
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Currently i don't know if i'm going to maintain
my blog on a daily basis but i am going to blog ACC (cancer) updates - the
original reason for creating my webpage and blog. *Hugs* to my friends and i wish
anyone looking for information about cancer on behalf of themselves or friends
and family all the best on your journey. ~kelly sXe
"With happy
thoughts,
faith and trust and
a sprinkling of fairy dust"
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Friday, August 15, 2003
The other night i was asked a question at the end of my 12 step meeting. A new member to this particular group but no stranger to 12 step programs asked me if he had a pill that would take away my craving for my particular addiction would i take it and stop coming to meetings?
Yes i would take the pill. I would take it because at the moment i'm having a tough time with this particular addiction and it would guarantee freedom from this problem for the rest of my life. I told him i wouldn't stop coming to meetings or give up my experience of having been addicted. He said the same thing regarding his alcoholism. He wouldn't change the fact he was an alcoholic.
I've learned and gained so much more from this group of people than just how to gain freedom from my addiction. They are accepting, forgiving, and non-judgemental and i wouldn't trade their friendship and support even to undue the damage i've done to myself over the years.
When you've been addicted to something you understand all addiction whether it's to drugs, alcohol, the internet, blogging, gambling, love or cigarettes. You can't usually learn that kind of understanding... you have to experience it. Contrary to a sometimes popular belief addiction does not equal weakness.
Weakness is a personal defect; a failing; or a special fondness for something such as icecream. Addiction is a compulsive physiological and psychological need for a habit-forming substance or the condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or involved in something.
susi
12:00 AM
"I have heard it all my life,
A voice calling a name i recognized as my own.
Sometimes it comes as a soft bellied whisper.
Sometimes it holds an edge of urgency.
But always it says:
Wake up my love.
You are walking asleep.
There's no safety in that."
- -- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
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"You're an interesting species... an interesting mix.
You're capable of such
beautiful dreams...and such horrible nightmares."
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carcinoma organization international
