My nickname is kelly. I'm a 40yr old mom of two beautiful little girls, two guinea pigs and a hamster(Rocky)~ICU nurse~cancer survivor~recovering addict~ex-smoker~living
in Calgary, Alberta.....
.... or...
just another sheep searching for the meaning of life and everlasting
happiness....
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
When i find it i'll be sure to let you know though ;)~~~~~~~~
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Currently i don't know if i'm going to maintain
my blog on a daily basis but i am going to blog ACC (cancer) updates - the
original reason for creating my webpage and blog. *Hugs* to my friends and i wish
anyone looking for information about cancer on behalf of themselves or friends
and family all the best on your journey. ~kelly sXe
"With happy
thoughts,
faith and trust and
a sprinkling of fairy dust"
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Thursday, March 13, 2003
I'm back working out and taking getting in shape seriously. Yep i hit bottom and now i gotta crawl back up. Why the hell i seem to always have to hit bottom with stuff i don't know but that's just the way it seems to be. Whether it's smoking or weight or whatever. Hit bottom... freak out... then do something about it. So here i am again.
I have never weighed this much EVER unless i've been pregnant or just had a baby and was on my way back down to a more normal weight. So G*d only knows what i thought i was doing between xmas and now. I just closed my eyes... blocked out the world and ate... numbing myself to anything and everything. Not sure why really... i guess if i knew i'd be out there writing a book... talking to Oprah and making my first million.
Anyway, that is done with now... ( i hope... g*d i hope so!!!). I started a workout blog to track how i'm doing cause we all love to keep track of stuff. If you're interested enough you'll find the link around here somewhere. I got the idea from Lorien actually. Thanx Lorien. :))))) I was looking back over some older entries of hers because i've been horribly neglectful in getting around to my usual daily blog haunts and saw some links to fitness blogs she'd left. It was lucky i saw them at all. Synchronicity and all that if you believe in that kinda thing. ;)
Also i joined a girly gym. A surprising event really. I'm more into the regular gyms where you do the treadmill thing then go lift weights with the "meatheads". ( a term used most affectionately (NOT) by a very good friend of mine ) I have never been into "girly" weight machines and weird leg spreading inner thigh thingys... i like to choose the weight... and lift it... preferably free weights.
But what the hell... at this weight i'm pretty desperate. So i figured i'd go do the girly thing. It's close and quick and cheap. These girly gyms do this circuit training stuff. Another type of exercise i'd always thought was kinda lame.
I took a look at this place and figured... Ha! this'll be good as a little back up for the treadmill and weights i was gonna do at home... figured it would get me out of the house and hey anything is better than sittin on my butt in front of the pc right?
Omg... talk about sucked in. They make it look soooooo easy... get ya in the door... a little of this... a little of that... around the circuit on the girly machines... no big deal... HA!! It just about friggin killed me. No wonder they guaranteed you'd lose weight and inches if ya came 3 times a week. I thought yea right 3x a week... like that'll do anything...lolol. Omg... and after once around the circuit when she told me i had to go around again i just about fell on the floor.
I've totally changed my opinion on circuit training. It's a great cardiovascular workout... my heartrate is constantly at 28/10seconds... yea i know well above what a 39 year old should be but wtf unless they start playing Frank Sinatra that probably isn't going to change. The weights get my muscles to failure every time. And the great part is the next day i can still move which was the most surprising thing. After feeling the burn i thought for sure i wouldn't be able to move today but i was fine. So i went again today. :)
susi
12:01 PM
"I have heard it all my life,
A voice calling a name i recognized as my own.
Sometimes it comes as a soft bellied whisper.
Sometimes it holds an edge of urgency.
But always it says:
Wake up my love.
You are walking asleep.
There's no safety in that."
- -- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
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You're capable of such
beautiful dreams...and such horrible nightmares."
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