My nickname is kelly. I'm a 40yr old mom of two beautiful little girls, two guinea pigs and a hamster(Rocky)~ICU nurse~cancer survivor~recovering addict~ex-smoker~living
in Calgary, Alberta.....
.... or...
just another sheep searching for the meaning of life and everlasting
happiness....
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
When i find it i'll be sure to let you know though ;)~~~~~~~~
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Currently i don't know if i'm going to maintain
my blog on a daily basis but i am going to blog ACC (cancer) updates - the
original reason for creating my webpage and blog. *Hugs* to my friends and i wish
anyone looking for information about cancer on behalf of themselves or friends
and family all the best on your journey. ~kelly sXe
"With happy
thoughts,
faith and trust and
a sprinkling of fairy dust"
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Saturday, December 07, 2002
Got in a good saturday morning workout. :) I'm gonna need it because we're having dinner with some friends tonight. I didn't workout yesterday morning either. Doing the same workout five days in a row can be hard... physically and mentally... especially at 630am. So i think i'll try mon to thurs and sat's. A friend suggested it might not be a good idea to be taking 2 days in a row off... ie. the weekends... and i think he's right. It's too easy to blow everything from friday night to sunday night that way.
I'm anxious to see what my most recent chest xray shows. I think i'm going to call my old family doc and see if i can't get the results of an old one from her on monday. I'm sure she must have one from a year ago. I've got to wait two weeks to find out what the most recent one showed.
I haven't downloaded email from the ACCO support group in ages. Two days ago i downloaded 972 emails. I'm only going through the most recent ones and scanning the rest for anything that looks relevant to what's going on with me now. I can't help but try to find something out. I spent every waking minute online looking for stuff when i first got diagnosed. Dr W my ENT joked that they would do radiation on me just so i didn't spend the rest of my life looking up ACC info and stats online. Well i'm back at it.
People used to tell me... oh stop doing that... it'll make things worse... you'll drive yourself nuts... huh???... it was the only thing that made me feel better. The more i knew the better i felt even if it wasn't good news. Everyone deals with this stuff in different ways... some people like to stick their heads in the sand and pretend it doesn't exist... and i am the total opposite... i need to know everything there is to know. Damn it's frustrating not to have any copies of old chest xrays... that would answer a lot of questions.
Well i'd better go shower.
susi
3:08 PM
"I have heard it all my life,
A voice calling a name i recognized as my own.
Sometimes it comes as a soft bellied whisper.
Sometimes it holds an edge of urgency.
But always it says:
Wake up my love.
You are walking asleep.
There's no safety in that."
- -- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
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"You're an interesting species... an interesting mix.
You're capable of such
beautiful dreams...and such horrible nightmares."
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C A N C E R S T U F F
accoi - adenoid cystic
carcinoma organization international
