My nickname is kelly. I'm a 40yr old mom of two beautiful little girls, two guinea pigs and a hamster(Rocky)~ICU nurse~cancer survivor~recovering addict~ex-smoker~living
in Calgary, Alberta.....
.... or...
just another sheep searching for the meaning of life and everlasting
happiness....
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
When i find it i'll be sure to let you know though ;)~~~~~~~~
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Currently i don't know if i'm going to maintain
my blog on a daily basis but i am going to blog ACC (cancer) updates - the
original reason for creating my webpage and blog. *Hugs* to my friends and i wish
anyone looking for information about cancer on behalf of themselves or friends
and family all the best on your journey. ~kelly sXe
"With happy
thoughts,
faith and trust and
a sprinkling of fairy dust"
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Sunday, December 15, 2002
Ever feel like you can't win for losing? No matter how good your intentions are you're constantly shot down? Just when you think you've picked yourself back up... boom... shot down again. You're just starting to feel good... getting a grip on the situation... adjusting to the new picture... and your legs are knocked out from under you yet again. It doesn't matter what you say or what you do because you're wrong... you are in the wrong... everytime... all the time. What do you do? Turn right... you're cut off... turn left... you're cut off. There is no way through. Is there a way out? Yes... but what is more painful... constantly being shot down or removing yourself from the line of fire? Short, painful, relentless jabs or one long excruciatingly painful shot through the heart. Neither alternative is very appealing. Stalemate.
And the worst part? No one really cares either way.
I'm toasted. Tonight was more fun than i first thought. Wouldn't pay much attention to what i'm babbling about. Smoooooooooches. :)
susi
1:54 AM
"I have heard it all my life,
A voice calling a name i recognized as my own.
Sometimes it comes as a soft bellied whisper.
Sometimes it holds an edge of urgency.
But always it says:
Wake up my love.
You are walking asleep.
There's no safety in that."
- -- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
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"You're an interesting species... an interesting mix.
You're capable of such
beautiful dreams...and such horrible nightmares."
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C A N C E R S T U F F
accoi - adenoid cystic
carcinoma organization international
